graveyard mind or All Beauty Must Die


Editorial featured in the third issue of AVA magazine.
Photography, styling, editing, props: me
Model: Kamile Tumelyte

This is from June. Fifth and the last part of my project "The Dreamers: State of Mind"
It got pretty dark..


 It's hard to keep dreaming. To appreciate beauty around you so greatly, that you feel like bursting into the smallest pieces. This last part of the project is what happens when your dreams go terribly wrong, when you're nearly losing it.
The world keeps pushing us, dreamers, away with all the terrible things happening, all the people who bring us down in different ways and tell us that we have to wake up and accept reality as it is: rotten. But I don't believe it. This world, The Nature can be so enchanting. Reality is not rotten. Just some people are. So I'll keep living as I do know - dreaming and creating my own wonders. And yes, maybe I will suffer, because I understand that "All beauty must die" and it will, but that's the path that I would always choose.


 
 And something else I've been thinking about a lot. When most of my photography is "pretty girls in pretty dresses" it drives me into a serious identity crisis. I keep balancing between two completely different sides of me, which you might not always see, because photography is the only way I know how to keep my darkness locked up. Because the stories I dream up might look magical and pretty, but I will never be like that and I'm definitely not naive, quite contrary - often I might seem like a really negative person. And that's the reason I will always stay alone. It's hard, but I know I will make my peace with this in the end. I never thought that I will have a peaceful nice life.

my mind is a deep forest


of confusing thoughts and dreams
and occasional little miracles
and it's tangled branches reach high




May 2011


Model Gintare
Hair, make up, photography, edit by me.

Another part of my The Dreamers: State of Mind series.
And Gintare is turning 15 today, she's growing up so fast! Happy happy birthday for her, she has become my little muse. :}

like a frightened deer

Menuo Juodaragis 2011

First of all - four photoshoots on the way, so be patient. :}}
These are the pictures from another festival, the last weekend of summer and it actually took place in the same place as Rock Nights that I posted pictures from before. The festival is called Menuo Juodaragis, (Black Horned Moon). It's a festival "of post-folklore, alternative music and contemporary Baltic culture" according to it's website.
I think it was one of the best festivals of this summer and maybe even one of the best ever, because the weather was just perfect, I met so many amazing people, so much happened and it was just.. magical. I even wrote poetry after it (and I haven't written anything but prose in a long time).
This is the fire of the opening ritual/ceremony.

Me in traditional Lithuanian folk robe. 

These are the same people and my friends that organize Romuva camp that I always go to. They're probably the main ritual folk ensemble in Lithuania and they organize a lot of Lithuanian feasts and do wedding, baptism ceremonies in the old Baltic way.


People (there were a lot of them) singing and dancing folk songs in three circles.

A LOT of things happened in the festival. This is what's left of the glasses after the night.


These two are my old friends and they are just beautiful people. They are a couple and they create wonderful music together with various weird instruments.

Listen to them if you want to feel a tiny bit of the festival mood.
First one has a really beautiful music video. :} aaah, I just want so much to be in it, on the wooden boat on the lake, dancing and singing around the bonfire...

And this one is just sooo fun (fun begins at 1:00), they're singing it in center of Vilnius, (capital of Lithuania) in the winter night.



summer diary

bits and pieces of my life. self-portraits and things around me, from this summer.
you can see the whole summer project here, in my facebook
when inspired by "The Dreamers" we built a huge tent in my living room
when Gintare slept over at our place

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