graveyard mind or All Beauty Must Die


Editorial featured in the third issue of AVA magazine.
Photography, styling, editing, props: me
Model: Kamile Tumelyte

This is from June. Fifth and the last part of my project "The Dreamers: State of Mind"
It got pretty dark..


 It's hard to keep dreaming. To appreciate beauty around you so greatly, that you feel like bursting into the smallest pieces. This last part of the project is what happens when your dreams go terribly wrong, when you're nearly losing it.
The world keeps pushing us, dreamers, away with all the terrible things happening, all the people who bring us down in different ways and tell us that we have to wake up and accept reality as it is: rotten. But I don't believe it. This world, The Nature can be so enchanting. Reality is not rotten. Just some people are. So I'll keep living as I do know - dreaming and creating my own wonders. And yes, maybe I will suffer, because I understand that "All beauty must die" and it will, but that's the path that I would always choose.


 
 And something else I've been thinking about a lot. When most of my photography is "pretty girls in pretty dresses" it drives me into a serious identity crisis. I keep balancing between two completely different sides of me, which you might not always see, because photography is the only way I know how to keep my darkness locked up. Because the stories I dream up might look magical and pretty, but I will never be like that and I'm definitely not naive, quite contrary - often I might seem like a really negative person. And that's the reason I will always stay alone. It's hard, but I know I will make my peace with this in the end. I never thought that I will have a peaceful nice life.

16 comments

  1. ohh this is so cool and she's got amazing hair!

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  2. I really adore this series, and I also hugely relate to what you've written.

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  3. Thank you! I loved her hair like that too, now she dyed it honey-blond.

    Veronica, nice to hear that I'm not the only one. :}

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  4. These photos are really wonderful.. I'm in love with them :3 And the model is amazing *-*

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  5. Ailera, I think you have a beautiful mind and it is expressed in your photography, I can also tell you have a dark side. It would be nice if you showed the other side to us from time to time. :)
    I appreciate what you do & I have learnt alot from following your three blogs. Xxx

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  6. Victoria,
    I'm really glad that you follow my blogs and like them, your comment means a lot <3

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  8. The concepts behind your pictures are so incredibly deep and awesome. Keep doing what you love, and make it reflect ALL sides of you, you'll feel completely free that way. Beauty does not have to be "pretty" all the time. you are amazing ailera :)

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  9. that's AWESOME! love your blog and your photographs! greetings from germany :)

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  10. Jose Pablo,
    aww, thanks for your comment, would love to get some more longer comments like yours! <3

    U, thank you! :}

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  11. Maybe you should make her eyes cry, to reflect your inner soul. Apart from that the pictures has a very ethereal feel to it, beautiful.

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  12. I love it!
    Kisses, Em**

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  13. I just love your photos ! Not only your photos but also your conception of dreams, of imagination, of what's real, and how small the bounderies bewteen dreams and reality are. I have exactly the same feeling and the same ... I don't know, way I conceive a photo even though your talent makes everything :) ! I'm sorry if I'm not clear, but I wanted to post a comment which would say more than a simple : your photos are beautiful ! Soo, keep making me dream, because it's exactly what your photos do ! I hope you will keep feeding your imaginary world, and sharing a part of it with us :)

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  14. Thank you so much! This is why I like to take pictures, to inspire and make people dream, so your comment means a lot! I wish I got more in depth comments. :}}}

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